(via wordsnquotes) Mar 27th / 109,413 notes †
So its been absolutely ages since i’ve blogged anything..
Life has been super hectic. 4 months ago i became a mummy to the most amazing little girl. my boyfriend and i moved into our first family home.
I knew becoming a mum would be hard but jesus i never realised how hard it is, going from being a person who could do whatever whenever to becoming someone who is constantly on high alert, being ankle deep in nappies, bills, clothes and lacking sleep, jeez the lack of sleep hurts.
When my daughter was 4 weeks old i was diagnosed with PND and its honestly the worst thing in the world. ive always suffered with depression and anxiety but this is worst but its not just an internal battle with myself now, i’m battling against my maternal instincts.
PND makes me feel like the WORST person in the world. all this pent up anxiety, stress and sometimes even resentment against my own daughter who is the most perfect person, shes so flawlessly funny & cute but it doesn’t stop me thinking oh she’d be so much better off without me the thoughts of someone would be able to give her a better life than i can, and sometimes having moments of thinking do i even want this? am i cut out to be a mum? does my child even like me? but the battle with PND is you have those moments and then i look at my child and think i could not be without her and then i cry because i feel bad about the thoughts that i had.
Unfortunately the problem with all mental health in the UK unless you’re threatening to throw yourself off a bridge you do not get help.
I struggle to open up to my friends,family and even my boyfriend because im scared they,ll look at me different and will think im not cut out to be a mum.
Mum life is fucking hard but im looking forward to the battles and challenges to become the best mum i can to my child.
Post natal depression you will not own me, you will not own me.
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